Last week had some pretty awesome moments for me! I got featured on some pretty large pages: Dark and Lovely, Midget Giraffe, Shop Zuvva, ,Asoebiafrica, and Asoebibella. I got more collaboration requests and the blog was seeing more numbers than it has ever seen. I was geeked for Saturday because I was shooting for the 1st time with a new photographer at the beach. I was up until 12 trying to prep my blog looks , clean my house, and prep my hair. I had to be at 4:45 am to do my makeup and get my family on the road by 6.The excitement push the fatigue into an afterthought.
Here comes the kicker. So the photographer is running a bit late (no biggie) so I decide to shoot a blog look while I wait. Nope. Trash.Lighting was horrible. I get a call from the photographer, and she is here. I'm ready to meet up and so I wait for her to 'send me the locatiooonn" in my Khalid voice;trudging along the beach with bags of clothes. I walked about 1.5 miles on the beach and no photographer. By this time, I am getting hot and my hair and makeup are sweating out. Hubs grabs the phone to get better directions because the heat is getting to me and clearly I'm not gonna find her. He finds her and I'm just chilling beachside trying to repair my face and weave so I can slay the shoot.
The shoot goes well I think.It was getting hot and I looked at the shots and they looked good to me.After being on the beach for a couple of hourse getting musty, I am ready to dip out freshen up and shoot my 3 looks for the blog.Oh yea, I told Nay just to put her feet in the water.We didn't bring her swim clothes.SHE BAPTIZES HERSELF IM THE WATER AT THE BEACH.
Let's pack up all the shit already! I say and proceed to packing all the shit.
Me:"Bae, where are me and Nay Nay's crocs?"
Tim: "I don't know, I didn't have them."
Me: "Nay Nay said she gave them to you!" *starts to get mad
Me to Nay Nay : "Nay I thought you gave them to daddy?!"
Nay Nay: "I thought he picked them up out the sand"
So now we have to trek back to the shore on hot mid day sand with no shoes. Another mile walk and I'm pissed at my soaking-wet, can't-carry-crocs-with-their-weightless-selves child.Im carrying my bags and she is carrying her 6 yr old shame and I guess hubs is behind us.I was too busy trying to get off the beach as fast as possible.
I look back I guess .25 miles and I see bae still packing up his photography junk (I was hot and my feet were burning. Everything is junk at this point).I keep it moving because he has long legs and can catch up..75 miles later I hit the shore and actual land. I wait couple minutes for bae because he clearly is behind.10 minutes go by, then 15 minutes. Its getting even hotter and I forgot he has my phone. I have no phone, no husband , and no shoes. I ask a stranger to use her phone and I look like a beach bum. I got a wet child we have no shoes and bags of clothes and shoes. The lady was an angel. I called hubs and he says he is at the car and I'm like "why though?".I yell at him because I'm like we cant walk on hot asphalt with no shoes. He ended up finding the shoes somewhere on the beach and I roll my eyes and high tail to meet him. I find him and we get in the car. By this time, I am boiling hot literally and my feet are swelling. We get in the car and I bust out crying because thing are going terribly wrong and I am scared I'm not going to get to shoot and we are leaving the beach because well the day was going to poop.
We leave the beach and head inland about 25 mins away only to realize one of my brand new shoes that I was using to shoot with are missing.Here comes cry #2.I panic because I don't know where I dropped it when I was carrying my stuff, but I am a little optimistic because hubs did find our sandals.We head back to the beach (UUUgggghhhh!!!) and he checks local business and the pier to see if it turned up.Nothing.So I get out to go scour the beach for my brand new shoe.My heart was broken.I have never lost a shoe.My shoes are like my family...kinda sorta.Halfway on the pier the heat gets to me and I just turn around.There is no way I would find this shoe.I walk back to the car only attempt to tell babe that I don't care only to proceed into cry #3.The day was officially shit.I am done.No more care.No more blog.I make an official decree on Facebook and in my IG stories of this.
Zara has the same look but expect to pay about $100.I copped my look for less than $45 on www.shein.com . This mixed print look is so good so you can see why I was on the verge of being crushed if I could not shoot it.My shoes are from www.therealreal.com. They were having one of their amazing Real Big Sales and I got these Charlotte Olympia Shoes for $100!!
Back to my bad day....
On top of all this the car has to be serviced. Running on fumes and 4 hours of sleep, we head to the dealership .I fall asleep and have the best sleep of my life. After it seems like 8hrs, later I wake up and feel a bit of a renewal. I also saw all the outpouring of love on social media and virtual hugs and after my day you can guess how much that was appreciated. I want to just thank you all for giving me the positive energy I needed and a special thanks for hubs for understanding how hard I was trying not to lose everything Saturday even though Saturday clearly hated me. One last "c'mon babe" and I was ready to shoot. You can see the result was pretty amazing!
Saturdays are a lot for me. I work all week and prep all week. My hubs also works all week so Saturday we have to balance blog time and family time with Nay Nay. This is no easy task, but we try to make the most of it. Sunday is editing and relaxing day. Of all the things I have time is the one I can not seem to have enough of so if I feel like I cant align my time and good energy, everything is off.I am sharing this because I feel sharing highs and lows are important .I am not perfect and my journey is tough, but it is worth it.I can't apologize for my meltdowns yesterday because I needed them. Emotions are important and release of emotional frustration is vital in mental stability.I am thankful for days like Saturday because it reminded me that there will be days like this and how much I am needed. I don't wish you perfect days, but the strength to make it through the bad ones.
I don't want you all to envy me at all. I don't have a glamorous closet , tons of money and an extensive and glam social life.The blog is all I have to keep me going from the mundane I deal with outside of being a mom, wife, and having a full time job.This is passion-work to me.I take it very serious and have to move quickly to balance blog and family time.I really only see my husband on the weekends because of his work schedule and he still takes the time to do my pics. There are lot of happy accidents in this blog, but there is so much calculation , love, sweat , and tears that goes into this.I don't take it lightly. Because of these factors I am very stingy with my time and not apologetic for it.I.LIVE.FOR.THIS.
Thank you all once again for not giving up on me while I fight not to give up on myself at times.Life get's hard, but we don't have to turn a bad day into a bad life.Sometimes we gotta grease our legs, put on our sexiest pumps, cry in the car, and get out the slay the shit out of life!
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